God has re-made me

I went to a wondrous conference called Voice of the Profits where God called me to re-dedicate myself to Him. I felt the pull to go forward so strong it was almost like a physical pull.


The next day we went to lunch at the house with a couple who had gone to school at Global Awakening and again I felt a pull to skip the afternoon session and just stay and talk to this wonderful couple because I wanted to ask questions and felt that they could help me.

I am so grateful that we stayed. Paul and Kristy are so open to God and willing to walk with him that it must be so easy for God to work through them. Kristy even mentioned that I needed to download when we first mentioned skipping the afternoon sessions.

God showed Paul that my biggest wound was around me accepting God's love. God showed Paul that the reason that I have always felt that I have a heart to love the world and why I can be with the most desperate of people and love them and be loved by them even though I did not love myself is because Jesus has always used me as a conduit to love others.


I have never had a problem being used. I had a problem believing that I had any worth to allow some of that love to leak through and bleed into me. I knew that God loved me, I didn’t know why. I may have been hurt by those I have loved because I did not have the full protection of God’s perfect will. I may have allowed myself to be used by those that I love until I have given every last bit of me until I am on the verge of collapse, not knowing that it is not my own heart but the heart of God that I was/am supposed to be spreading. Not realizing that I should not be looking to man to re-fill my "Tank" but just to love God and let his love, peace, and Joy flow to me and and it overflows me it will leak out of me and to everyone else.

God has re-made me. I get to have my virgin wedding night. When I was filled with the Holy Fire I was cleansed by the Holy Fire and all Sin was washed away with my repentance and
surrender. When God recreated me He recreated me entirely from head to toe. As I walk with God I hear his voice and have no desire to follow the voice of the deceiver.

The change he is making in me is amazing I have more love to give than ever before because for the first time I love myself. I have seen myself with Gods eyes and I am amazingly beautiful. How could I not love any creation of God's that he takes such joy in and obviously loves so much?

The other amazing thing is that it is not a carnal love at all. What I mean is that I am having no issue at all with keeping my virginity until my wedding day. God wants me to spend my time with him and he gives me the strength to do as he desires. Would he still love me if I stumbled? Yes, Do I have any desire to Stumble? No, for I am his sheep and I know his voice and he leads me not into temptation. I am a Princess in the Royal Kingdom of God this is my time to learn how to be treated and to react as his beloved Princess.

I learn more and more about what God has done for me every day as he reveals things to me and I am more and more amazed at his love and generosity towards us all.